people clyde used to know

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Inspired by some people I Used to know by ihavefivehat

There are more people I used to know, but my motivation dissipated as my drawings looked less and less like the people I used to know and I began to feel guilty about not really remembering what they looked like. Also, I started remembering people I don't want to put into a published game.

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sergiocornaga's picture

It took me ages to figure

It took me ages to figure out Sam! I was initially seeing something like a skateboarder, suspended upside-down in mid-air, but as soon as I saw the smaller view after clicking edit, facial features fell into place.

My first reaction to this was "I want to make one too"! But drawing portraits of people then acknowledging I "used to" know them and don't now has a finality to it that I hate thinking about.

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"My first reaction to this

"My first reaction to this was "I want to make one too"! But drawing portraits of people then acknowledging I "used to" know them and don't now has a finality to it that I hate thinking about."

I had this thought while making it. This was one of the more powerful aspects of the exercise; there are people I included that I will likely see again eventually and who I follow on Facebook, but admitting in game-form that I "used to know them" was a cathartic acceptance since my default insistence that I still do know them causes more distance between us than communion. gg

ihavefivehat's picture

In my game, I very

In my game, I very consciously chose people who I have lost touch with... people who I rarely think about consciously, but impressions of whom dance at the edge of my memory. It's about the feeling of losing touch with someone and then gradually forgetting them. And then trying to remember what they were like, but only being able to dredge up bits and pieces... ghosts and masks, flashes of light and shadow. I definitely feel guilty about having allowed myself to forget those people... their memories exist in that dark part of my mind where I sequester things I don't want to think about. "the forbidden zone" A lot of the people here are associated with moments and emotions that I'd rather not remember ...

It's interesting to see the different approach you took, Clyde. Your portraits seem much more individualized, with imagery that signifies their personality. I can see why you would feel the need to stop midway through. I probably kept my portraits vague as a way to keep myself from having to fully engage with the guilt and shame associated with memory.

rhetoricstu's picture

"Also, I started remembering

"Also, I started remembering people I don't want to put into a published game."

Is it because they're ugly? It's because they're ugly, right?

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No, it's because they were

No, it's because they were malicious.

rhetoricstu's picture

fun fact: the word "brutto"

fun fact: the word "brutto" in Italian means both ugly and malicious

clyde's picture

At least one of the people I

At least one of the people I thought to include but didn't want to due to malicious behavior was conventionally attractive, all were intellectually engaging.
Thanks for the Italian tip. It's hard to find particular connotations of words with Google Translate and particular connotations are often the most interesting aspect. I'm especially excited to hear the various meanings of homophones in non-English languages because I often suspect cultural associations between the multiple meanings. "Brutto" is a great example as you describe it and I will likely remember what you have informed me of this evening the next time I run into its utterance.

Son of a dolphin's picture

the different sort of art

the different sort of art styles for the different people gave an interesting contrast for how they were percieved, like sam and joshua blended into the background and anna was sort of the most boldly presented figure with all the trees in the background

increpare's picture

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